you were wrong

You were sneaky and took what you wanted. i was no one to you……an object. You thought it didn’t matter because i was just a quiet, good, little girl. But You were wrong. You hid what you could be to others around me. You showed me your side you carefully hid. You touched me where you were never supposed to. You stole something precious from me i have badly needed! You cared only for you own pleasure that morning At such an unexpected opportunity for yourself. You thought it didn’t matter because i was just a quiet, good, little girl. But You were wrong. You scared me with your mean and silencing looks, You may have thought that i would always be the quiet, good, and scared, little girl Who would never tell a soul, who would just forget. Well listen to me , You were wrong. i am no longer a little girl. i am no longer as quiet. i am no longer as silent, although i only whisper, I will never scream i am no longer your slave. your toy. i am no longer your puppet on a string. i am no longer frozen inside an ice of pain. i am no longer alone. You thought i didn’t matter You were wrong. You are dead now, lucky you!, and i am alive, painfully alive And living with the emptiness and despair you heaped upon me. You thought i didn’t matter because i was just a quiet, good, and scared, little girl. But you stole everything within from me, i didn’t give of me to you. You slashed my soul and ripped my heart and spirit. You altered my life course and shattered what trust i had left. You tore from me my child’s innocence as if it were nothing. You stripped me of belief i was Worth loving, Worth knowing, Worth defending, Worth having, Worth receiving help Worth hearing Worth being heard, Worth even living.You shocked me with a knowing i should not have yet known. In your self-gratification, you handed me a lifetime of ......... Shame, Guilt, Depression, Mistrust, Fear, Sadness, Loneliness, Despair. You thought i didn’t matter because i was just a good, quiet, scared, obedient, withdrawn, lonely, little girl. You thought i would never be strong enough to speak because i was just a good, quiet, scared, obedient, withdrawn, lonely, little girl. You were wrong. i may only whisper now and i may still cower and run in fear. But my voice will get stronger though i do not know how And i will somehow take my life back and be free of you. Someday i will not just be a good, quiet, scared, obedient, withdrawn, lonely, little girl. Somehow, someday, even me, i, this self within, will know and truly believe that You were wrong. And it wasn't my fault..